I don't feel like figuring out a subject thing for this... all it is is thoughts and I know I've used that before.


Today I ran into the girl who was by best friend in 5th and 6th grade when I'd first lived out here... boy has she changed. She was looking for a job and one of her friends was w/ here... I think we were at Vons??? Well, anywho... me and Anthony were there w/ Jean, and since him and I'd been walking around he had his ICP hat on. Well apparently Jenn's friend is a 'lette... she asked Anthony if he was going to the gathering and when he said no I could hear how upset he is about it. Thing is... I think it's kinda my fault that he's not going. I know how "after-parties" w/ his friends go... they drink their asses off and get high. And I kinda don't want him to go. I know he didn't go to the last concert cause of his cusin's graduation, but there's nothing keeping him from going to the gathering. And I know he can get money and a way to get there if he just askes... but... fuck.. idk. I feel like I'm a bad g/f cause of this. I'm mostly afraid that if he goes that he'll find some Juggalette and I'll be completely wiped from his mind of something. Cause I know I'm no 'lette... I'm nothing compared to a 'lette. And I know that's most Juggalos' dreams is to fall in love w/ a 'lette. Plus I'm hearing a bunch of chicks asking him if he's going... what if he does go and he runs into one of them? Who's to say what'll happen. I don't want to say I don't trust him... I trust him mosre than I've ever trusted anyone. But I was always told [and constantly reminded] that "anything can happen"... and thta falls under anything. And I don't want to tell him [even tho he's probably gonna find out now anyway] cause I don't want him to get mad at me... but I'm kinda tired of just sitting here crying to myself thinking of it. I feel so horrible for all this. He's probably going to hate me now, and then it'd just all......... end. DAMNIT!!!! I've just gotta stop thinking!

aw hunny
Don't get too worked up. I bet you do trust him. It might just be the other chicks you don't trust. I'm going through something thats similar, and yet toatally different.... For Holloween Horror Nights, Matt might be asked to shave his head. I feel kinda bad because i told him i don't want him to.. PERIOD. Your not a bad girlfriend for lovin your Man and caring about him. He's not going to hate you. I'm sure your all he ever thinks about. It is true, "Anything can happen" However, do you really think Anthony would let anything happen that would upset you? Don't think too much babe. We both know where thinking to much leads lol.... Take care, love you
» Midnight on 2006-08-02 09:39:04

hey you
love your icons!!! where did you get them? btw, I poke you! muahahaha...
» siti84 on 2006-08-15 11:51:23

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